I don’t want to mess it up

(Before the big reveal—

We weren’t allowed to look in the mirror until it was finished)

Morgie on my lap….

“Hold on, Ollie, I’m going to move real quickly. I don’t want to mess it up.”

I asked for a pink Godzilla

Got “mom” on my forehead 👏🏻

In case I forget myself today

Which is likely

I do think we’re all losing it

But hanging on by a thread

Of what

I don’t know

Amoxicillin?

But we’ve managed to keep it togetherish

We’ve only broken a few things

And accidentally keyed my car

With a metal water bottle straw

But as I like to say

If it didn’t result in prison

Or death

Than everything will be alright

And everything is fixable.

I do think

Ollie will remember

That on his/our sick days

We still had fun

And looked like idiots

And danced around the kitchen

And only got face paint on two walls

And spared Morgie

By letting her go to town

On a box of tissues

If you’re wondering

What Ollie “is”…

(Come on my facepaint isn’t THAT bad 😬)

Elefin (I think is his name)

Who follows around Kirby

In Nintendo.

Anyway.

Here are a few other dreamy snaps from our day

Being sick is not fun

But I promise

Sitting outside

In our little garden

And doing nothing

Is the carrot I chase

And I have arrived

And one day

I’ll look back

Bittersweet

Having departed

From this season

(Maybe? Maybe we can still do nothing outside together…)

And be glad

In my heart

To know

I had put my phone away

(Except for the photos)

To just be with the kids

Soak it all in

Do the best I can

And at the end of my days

I can live with that❤️🙏🏻