Sadness inside of me

I have this

Sadness

Inside of me

And I’d say

It’s there sometimes

But it’s always there

When I open the door

And check on it

I look into my daughters blue eyes

And see my eyes

Except hers will last

Far beyond mine

And see things

Mine will never see

And be in a world

Mine may never exist in

I am so happy for her

And sadness still

Lives inside.

I knock on the door

And yep still there

When my son asks

How old will Morgan be

When he’s 11?

What about 20?

And 32?

Mom

How old will you be

When I’m 100???

🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

I answer

132

And sadness runs around me

Sadness sadness sadness

That he doesn’t think

There will be a world

Where we may not

Physically be together.

I just can’t imagine

With all this sadness

Because of all these BLESSINGS

Not having faith

Not praying

Every chance

To thank God (!!!!)

For giving me these miraculous gifts

That make my heart lurch

And I cry

And completely submit

In reverence

And awe

Of the miracle of life

In my hands.

My feelings are beyond words

And feel infinite

And beyond this world

When I knock on my heart’s door

Sadness lives inside

(And all the other happy feelings, not to worry)

But only because

Of God’s miracles.

Thank you God.

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We’re all better

(Also thank you, God!!!)

And celebrating Morgan’s bday

This weekend!!

Can’t wait!!! The big one!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️